This is my 42nd post.

I'm going to propose nothing, ask nothing, and contemplate nothing. I will just suggest to you all that you pay more attention to the life around you because if you aren't constantly in awe of the mystery of being and the blessings in your life -- yore doing it wrong. 

I dedicate this 42nd post to the one who came, the one who is about to come, and to me. Because without me my life would be way more boring than it is. 

and. finally, for three months later..

 

"Do not shed tears when I have gone 

but smile instead because I have lived. 

Do not shut your eyes and pray to God that I’ll come back 

but open your eyes and see all that I have left behind. 

I know your heart will be empty because you cannot see me 

but still I want you to be full of the love we shared. 

You can turn your back on tomorrow and live only for yesterday 

or you can be happy for tomorrow because of what happened 

between us yesterday. 

You can remember me and grieve that I have gone 

or you can cherish my memory and let it live on. 

You can cry and lose yourself become distraught 

and turn your back on the world 

or you can do what I want - smile, wipe away the tears, 

learn to love again and go on.

 

I can't go on. I must go on. I'll go on*" 

                                                * Samuel Becket, "The Unnameable"

                                                                                                  - david harkins